As water falls
In fractured cascade
See trauma’s pain
Fragmented mesh
Of memory and behavior
Slim tenuous tendrils
Strewn across twin darknesses
Of dissociation and repression
Shattered shards of self
Unanchored and adrift
As water falls
In fractured cascade
See trauma’s pain
Fragmented mesh
Of memory and behavior
Slim tenuous tendrils
Strewn across twin darknesses
Of dissociation and repression
Shattered shards of self
Unanchored and adrift
Observe the beauty of a woman
The tortured rending of ego
As the gaze exploits under heat
Like me
Like orange
Not range
Not fringe
Not forage
Nor porridge
Though all tinker with
The tongue and the ear
The elusive rhyme
The elusive me
To stand out
From the cacophony
Of life around her
But she knew
Who she was
And what she could do
And if others
Couldn’t see her
That was their problem
With an electron microscope
I cannot see within the smallest part of me
With the clearest mirror
I cannot see the me that is me
With the mightiest pen
I cannot set down the words defining me
With the cleverest mind
I cannot imagine the bounds of me
With the truest heart
I love, which is all I need to know of infinity
No thing
No one
No place
No moment
No emotion
No insight
Is ever the same
One moment
To the next
A time before anything lived
And the closest thing to life
Were molecules
Which looked like
The kinda things
You built life with
As I test
Who I am
What I do
What I have
Against
Who I might have been
What I might be doing
What I might have
Who I am
What I was always
Meant to be
And here am I
Year over year
Setting down my characters
Setting down my letters