That first one
The one that was almost
But not quite
I feel the cut again
Like paper
Cutting flesh
How could paper
My friend, my ally
On which I spill my soul
Cut so deep
So painfully
Bleed so much
Heal so slowly
Pain
Lingering
Because the blood stops
But it never clots
Yet that cut healed
Finally
So long ago
I see now
What could not
Be seen then
Have you lost someone?
Has your relationship shattered?
Left you alone?
Cut you in half?
Time will fill the void in your life
The time once given to someone else
It was someone very special
That person always
In some way
Will be very special
Their presence marked the shape of you
How could they not be special?
Still, you have some space now
And you’ll make more, in time
You can put more of yourself in there
You get to go back to defining yourself
Being yourself
Rather than being a couple
Defining yourself as a half
You can look in the mirror and see yourself
Rather than see a reflection of yourself
In someone else’s eyes
You can re-ignite your intimate friendships
Dole out what you were sharing with one
To a few others
See where your friendships go
How deep their roots are
You might lose some friends
But other friendships will be revealed
As deeper than you ever knew
Do you see?
You have not
Been cut in half
You are not divided
You are multiplying
You are expanding
You can do the things you like to do
Listen to your favourite music
Full blast
And sing to your heart’s content
Without worrying whether someone else
Is digging your groove
You will rediscover who you once were
And realize how you’ve changed
Make choices about what you will keep
And what will be set aside
Like the memory of a relationship
That almost was
But not quite
Looking back
Many of the best times of my life
And nearly all the best times of my growth
Came during the transitions from two to one
And one to two
You have one transition on the go
In time, you’ll get to enjoy that other
The one in which you get to discover
Another soul
And discover your own, anew
Through the eyes of another
You will be bigger
You will have multiplied
Time will have restored
Your precious love
Downtown Eastside
Vancouver
British Columbia, Canada, 2015
The photo looks like the same image posted on Paper/Cut, but it’s a second photogaph of the same subject, treated a bit differently. Do you have a preference?